A Revolutionary Intent

With this New Moon I'm Speaking in a New way of being in the World

Hey dear reader, How are you?

After a deep spell of introspection, I’m coming out of my hermit hole. 😉

There were so many moments I wanted to write to you over the past few months. But something in me held back. It just didn’t feel like the right time. I’ve been in a death and rebirth cycle—one I’m only now finding clarity in. And with this New Moon in Gemini -the archetype of the messenger, and also my sun sign, I feel ready to share.

What’s been unfolding? At the core, a quiet but steady longing—for peace, flow, focus, guiding me into a different way of being. A life rooted in the kind of trust that lets me lean back and be held by others and by the Universe. That’s let’s me be guided rather than taking the lead and “figuring things out”.

But that trust? It’s not easy to embody. I’ve spent years of finding safety and comfort in a pattern of going it alone, strategising, initiating, and retreating whenever I felt unsure or vulnerable. Even when I wanted to soften into flow, I kept defaulting to old habits—jumping into action at the first sign of uncertainty. Unexpected expenses I didn’t have funds for. A disappointing response to something I offered. A misunderstanding. Suddenly I’d be busy again, tweaking things, doubting myself, switching directions. Always trying to fix. It became a safety blanket and a statement of my worth—ironically wrapped in stress.

At the heart of it was this belief: If I don’t make it happen, nothing will. It felt so normal…even responsible. It’s the belief much of our world runs on. But underneath, it was rooted in scarcity. In isolation. In the idea that I had to prove I was worthy, over and over again. That it was unsafe to trust or to receive.

That belief quietly shaped everything. Even inspired action sometimes came from a space of fear—leaving me feeling out of sync and unseen.

Does any of that feel familiar to you?

Since the last eclipses in March, it’s been like the Universe has been slowly inviting me to let go of this way of being, and the belief that underpinned it. Life kept presenting me with situations that I couldn’t control or solve—externally shaky, internally confronting. At times I’ve felt completely unmoored. There have been tears, fear, and grief. But also… spaciousness. To notice how much I’ve clung to needing answers. And to imagine who I might be without that. Space to experience life in flow and notice how ungrounded and false my beliefs often are.

I’ve started to learn how to sit with the insecurity (inner and outer). To breathe through it. To let people see it. Realising it is as natural as feeling secure and only gets bigger when I resist it.

Learning to trust, even just a little more each day. It’s been vulnerable and raw. And also healing and like deep relief in my body.

Now—while I don’t have it all figured out (and maybe that’s the point)—I feel something new growing. A willingness to experiment with being guided. To resist the urge to take over. To let people and life come to me, instead of always rushing forward.

It’s scary. But also… it sparks my Gemini curiosity and playfulness. 🤸‍♀️

So here’s what I’m stepping into: I want to co-create. I want to soften into trust—of myself, of others, of the unfolding. I want to honour the beauty of what’s already here. To live from joy, from vision, from the magnetic force of appreciation and openness. Letting my desires spark excitement and trust and then let myself be guided and surprised in the path to their fulfilment.

This is the intention I’m planting with this Gemini New Moon. It feels revolutionary.

What about you, dear one? What seeds—of change, of creativity, of curiosity—are you planting right now?

I’d love to hear from you.

With love,
xx Cathy